Second streetband and a bit of mixed feelings^^

We were given leaflets.. Found Japanese speaking partnet.. Started singing, clapping and dancing. I was waiting for Jongsub. He was working most of his time, so it turned out that the only chance for him to visit church was to go on streetband. My purpose was to introduce him to my friends from JLH. So I invited him on streetband and he came! I was so grateful to God! I was so happy he will meet those amazing people, I hoped he will like them too (as I love them). I wanted also him to experience something really good during his stay in Tokyo. I wished he will have some unusual, good memories with people from JLH. So he came, we talked a bit, but I knew I'm here to invite people, so I left him with boys. But I didn't think that time about other people(from church) reactions. My idea of inviting him on streetband was spontanious and I didn't think about various consequences. So some were worried about me(that I talk with a guy, that maybe he wants something from me etc.).. I felt really embarassed, I didn't want them to feel that way. But I also founded that I felt offended for a while. I was thinkig too much about myself, I was too concerned about me. I wanted to do something good, there were some complications, but in my heart I should have stayed peaceful. But I didn't (for a while) and when I realised it, I knew I need to talk more specifically about it with God. So firstly (as Lewis said: run to God when you have any problems:P ) I prayed at streetband and then enjoyed it to the end. I had also small talk with Jongsub and he was pretty excited, he said those people are so friendly, they have true joy, so I was happy he liked it. But most importantly in the evening while I was spending time alone with God I asked Him about this incident. And He showed me my selfishness and past things which affected my reaction. People hurted me much in the past, so I had this bad reaction in me: trying to defend myself, thinking they judged me unfairly. It wasn't right.. They acted with love and care. So thanks to this situation God helped me to see again things from the past and He fixed my heart again! It was one of the big steps to change, he was modifing, shaping (I don't know how express it in English) my character. That day I realised that God speaks to me EVERYDAY through EVERY situation I face. From this day slowly by slowly I started to have this disciple's attitude. Looking for opportunity to learn something new about me about God and being ready to change. Now each day of my life is even more precious for me, I care for my days, I want them to be filled with God who teaches me how to change, how to live, how to see more. So Kirby, Miwa thank you for talk we had that time:))
And remember God is using every situation in your life for your good!!!!!!!!! (I took this sentence from Lewis message:P)
And that day Iza had her small adventure^^ With a band playing next to us^^